Everybody Knows but No-one Really Knows

The Christian struggle is one like no other. It's like im always fighting to stay on top almost as if I unlearn everything I learn in church by Monday, as if I erease from memory everything I read during devotions, as if delete the existence of God when my day starts. There is no battle that's harder to win, there is no fight that wounds you more, there is no war that has more risks involved than the war of the Christian. I struggle daily with myslef, fighting against my own nature, the very essence of my sinful being, because I am  a christian. Its almost as if with every trial with every temptation,  I will always be a freshman, I will always be rookie because I dont learn from my mistakes I dont gain experience nothing, I just fall again, I just fail Him again.......... like this 5000th encounter was my first time. I  can feel Satan laughing in my face everytime I slip and fall, honestly it feels like I spend more time on the floor than anywhere else because sometimes when I fall I dont even bother to pick myself up because I see myself as unworthy. I dont see myself the way my bible tells me Jesus sees me. I dont see myself as the child of the king, I dont even see my self as the servant of the King because for even that task I am  not worthy.  Everytime my saviour and I are in a good place its as if the earth opens and swallows me up immedeatly seperating me from my God, but are we ever truly seperated from God? because my bible tells me that in the deepest darkest cornera of the ocean, in the darkest of time which ever botemless pit I happen to find myself at the bottom of today, whereever I am God is there. Why is he there? why does he keep fighting for me? why does keep an endless supply of mercy... just for me? why does he care? Why does he wake me up every morning, why doesn't he hit me with deadly diseases and end my existance on earth because THAT I do deserve. If God were man I would call Him stupid, I would call Him niave, but thats just it isnt it. God is not man. His ways are not our ways, His thought patterns, His sytem of thought His understanding is on differnt level from ours. For some reason He loves me and no the fact that he created me isnt good enough from my point of veiw. There is some unknown connection between me and God, between us and God, between you and God that makes Him manifest this unconditional ...out of this world love which the human nature cannot comprehend that makes Him love you and me inspite of... [ insert your load of crap here]... there's nothing else to say but... Jesus    loves   you..... but you got to look at that word love in a different way.... not Jesus wants to buy you chocolate or Jesus wants to give you roses or Jesus wants to Marry you but Jesus gives you life even though you curse him with it, Jesus stands here and gives chance after chance after chance even though He knows your going to let him down again, Jesus gives you clothes and food even though you betray almost every day, Jesus gives you everything even when we give nothing back. Who is this Jesus really? I want to know more about Him I driven to explore and understand His character because it truly is a phenomenon  This concept of unconditional love, this continuous giving without reciprocation is a phenomenon. This Jesus can be found Here : http://www.onlinestudybible.com/bible.htm

I Am a Cheater, But I Want to Stay Faithful.

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A Story of true forgiveness

The story is told in South Africa many decades ago when Caucasian–European men
predominantly owned the countries and inflicted great oppression. Any person even
remotely familiar with slavery or what became known as indentured-servitude would
understand the gruesome implications. Circumstantially the oppressed were natives to
the land and it was always said that when the natives took over governmental control
that it would be an utter bloodbath from the oozing vengeance that wanted to be
sought out against the corrupt overlords.

Now that we’ve laid the groundwork of the story let me tell you about this woman. This
woman is going to teach you something you’ll never to forget!

She was one of the natives in the country at the time. A mother and a wife…

For some unknown reason (assuming there was any reason at all), one of the ‘overlords’
came to her home and arrested her husband and took him to trial. Within this “trial”
there was no accusation. No judge. No jury. No chance. (Step 1: Would you forgive?)

During this ‘trial’ the woman and her children came begging for mercy on the man, the
father, the husband, while the overlord mercilessly beat him to death in front of their
eyes. After he was done he cut the innocent man to pieces while the family watched…
(Step 2: Could you forgive?)

As if this wasn’t cruel enough, the overlord came back, for the children and took them
to ‘trial’. To add vicious insult to injury he fatally beat the children and administered the
same ending as he did the husband. Only God I feel can understand that kind of pain…
(Step 3: Should you forgive?)

Ineluctably it wasn’t long before the natives overthrew the government. Nelson
Mandela led the movement and even though a bloodbath on the corrupt former leaders
was expected Nelson told his people that the thing his country needed most wasn’t
vengeance, but healing.

Nelson Mandela constructed a system wherein any former oppressor could come to
trial, and if he admitted his sins in full with a contrite heart to the victim(s), regardless of
the crime he could be acquitted.

The infamous oppressor who murdered countless people including the lady’s husband
and children stepped forward for trial while the woman was in attendance. Nelson
prompted the man to speak and admit all of his crimes. Without hesitation he listed his
crimes with apparently no remorse. The crowd was indignant and Nelson took heed and
asked the woman what punishment should be administered on this man.

The woman said “I want this man to be sentenced to visit me twice a week and spend
at least two hours with me and keep my company since he took everything from me”

Now I can imagine that this was very uninviting and awkward request and that Nelson
might have prompted her to continue with her reasoning for the request. In being
prompted the woman continued, “A man like this that can commit such a gruesome act
to people that love each other must not know love himself. I want him to visit me twice
a week and spend two hours each time so I can show him what love is and love him with
the love of a mother so he can understand love”.

You see true forgiveness is like the fruits of the spirit. They come naturally when you
commune with God. True forgiveness has no space for scrutiny of whether or not a
person deserves it. It comes naturally, to whomever, whenever for whatever. Until we
can forgive like this, we have no part with the Father…

Written By: Kevron Reid

Sick and Tired.

I am sick and tired of finding myself in the same spiritual condition over and

over. I hate the fact that I find myself repeating the same sins, the same dirty sins,

over… and over. It seems as if I’m stuck in a never-ending cycle of me going back to

God, continually asking for forgiveness. Uttering different prayers that spell out the

same message. I’ve been making promises that have been broken too many times. It

has begun to lose its worth. The line between right and wrong blurs in the process.

Justification for wrong doing suddenly becomes necessary whilst all that is right

becomes almost obsolete. At this point, Satan has a grip. He’s holding the reins.

He’s continually feeding me the same lies, each with a different taste. I have the

intentions to do the will of God, but the want to dwell in the Devil’s playground. His

toys seem so attractive yet, with each touch, they burn away the essence of God. The

feeling of being trapped is ever present.

God is crying out for me, and He’s crying out for you. Too many of us get

caught up in our lives and our daily sins, not realizing who we’re giving the control

to. We whined up getting sick with sin and getting tired of dealing with it. This

leaves us vulnerable to the enemy. God wants nothing but the best for us, so why

don’t we allow Him to intervene? Let him release us of the chains of defeat. No more

time to be sick and tired, it’s time to be healed and awakened. Let God take the

wheel, He’s a better driver than you.


Written by: KASEY REID